Monday, December 22, 2008

FWD on QUARTER Life crisis

Hav u felt like this? I bet u have!!!
- am gonna write my views on this soon.. ive got loads to say.. for now.. read this...............


Being a twenty-something

It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are many things about yourself that you didn't know and may not like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.

You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met, and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones. What you don't recognize is that they are realizing that too, and aren't really cold, catty, mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you.

You look at wat urstudyin or urjob... and it is not even close to what you thought you would be doing, or maybe you are looking for a job and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and that scares you.

Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and are constantly adding things to your list of what is acceptable and what isn't. One minute, you are insecure and then the next, secure.

You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly, change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life , but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away, and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.

You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you. Or you lie in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough that you want to get to know better. Or maybe you love someone! but love someone else too and cannot figure out why you're doing this because you know that you aren't a bad person. Getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic. You go through the same emotions and questions over and over, and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision. You worry about loans, money, the future and making a life for yourself... and while winning the race would be great, right now youare scared just to be a contender!

What you may not realize is that every one reading this relates to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out. Send this to your twenty-something friends... maybe it will help someone feel like they aren't alone in their state of confusion...



Its called "Quarter-life Crisis." nothing is constant......except change.
wats life without a few risks? keep playing the game!

A FWD a friend of mine sent me about nift

1. Some Basic definitions...NIFT

NIFT:Place where you're punished for having creativity.

Senior : Guy who got ragged as junior and wanna get some payback...

Fresher : Guy who has to ask where the canteen is...

Really Dumb Fresher : Guy who asks a senior where the canteen is.

Really Really Dumb fresher : Guy who follows the senior to the canteen.

Ragging : The unfortunate fate of the previous idiot.

Evasive action : Watch the juniors when any seniors come nearby. (No one runs faster than a fresher. NO ONE.)

Professor : Perso! n paid to put NIFT students to sleep.

External Prof : Unusual variant of previous individual who comes from industry with unusual and pathetic stories of himself.

Garment construction: three hrs in which you watch the girls do your assignment, and usually destroy a considerable no. of needles.

Hopeless Garment construction: The assignment in which you try to make a garment for your personal needs and accidentally it become a style from Versace.

2. The Truth about exams....

Irony : The guy who copied your entire paper passes and you flunk.

Critical Calculation : Summing up the marks you attempted worth in the exam...

3. An NIFTian's 10 commandments of Life
1. Thou shalt all were born with brain untill some decide to drop it and join NIFT.
2. Thou shalt never write thy assignments thyself.
3. Thou shalt begin writing thy assignment only on the morning of submission.
4. Thou shalt treat all marks above 50 as bonus.
5. Thou shalt have at least 70 per cent attendance in the canteen.
6. Thou shalt pass GRACEfully.
7. Thou shalt always be an OUTstanding student.
8. Thou shalt give thy attendance without being present...PROXY is a MUST
9. If thou can't convince them , confuse them.
10. Thou shalt start every sentence with a four-lettered word.

NIFT Anthem:
OOHHH NIFT CAMPUS KE TAALE >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>censored<<<<<<<<<<<<<<

Top two nift Rumors:
'Did you hear that there is class at 5:30pm by guest faculty'
'Did you hear,class is canceled and we had to do research on our assignment in library'


NIFTIAN at work:
Assignments solved by one and then carrying out mass transfer operations throughout the class

The most important machine for niftian:
Xerox Machine (Without which assignment completion wouldn't be possible)

. Feeling after Completing nift:
Survived NIFT!!!!!!!!!!!

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

IT still hurts....(Second day in a row)


PLEASE SEE THE PREVIOUS RELATED POST TO UNDERSTAND THE $#@&!! AM WRITING!!

Am not writing like this after a long time…..i just wrote a lot yesterday…
But the funny thing is that…-”what was hurting me very badly” yesterday, is what am laughing over today… not because it is not hurting anymore.. but….

Cos after days.. months… much more than a year now.. something deep inside me is making me find humour in these situations!!!
It is that pain back again….pain in the pit of my stomach cos am laughing like an idiot.
I can’t let that get off me…
Truth hurts …reality bites..
and dark humour totally rocks!!!!


It hurts when u like someone for years and are not even able to let him know….. ok this was a big one…. but I was the idiot.. and any way this was way too long back.. don’t know why I even mentioned this.silly cow!!

It hurts when as soon as he gets to know (what?? ha ha), you get to know he is with someone else,… LOL this is illustrated in this book called 'Why am I always the one before THE ONE?' , one girl’s quest to bag Mr Right…(Pure chick Lit … Intellectuals please stay away)

It hurts when you have been with someone for years and it ends over an email… worse still sms…or like Carrie says (of Sex n the City fame)… “through a scribbled note on a post-it”…. Anyway sometimes it better than getting to hear the dreaded words…you can act like nothing has happened and blame the bad handwriting!!!

It hurts when after deciding for the first time this is love you realize that he is not there any more. Wrong timing!! That’s the reason for so many of our problems..… whether it is relationships….. hasty job shifts.. ...burnt toast.... or embarrassing burping instances!!
And the rest are due to ill fitting clothes!!

It hurts when even after so much time you spent together it does not work…this happens all the time

It hurts when you see someone else in the same frame u were in earlier…
anyways may be he/she fits in there better than us (double pun intended)

It hurts when few days ago the distance did not matter and now that is the whole problem. Ok to all those people who think LDRs work wonderfully.. take a reality check!! Better be carefull than sorry.

It hurts when people can fake feelings.. why wasn’t I made like that… ur too slow.. u need to learn fast baby…

It hurts when you expect too much, get nothing in return… Now that is a genuine case of failed supply chain management.

It hurts when you mistake a friendship for much more, but at the end of the day it is what it is….lol
It hurts when you expect a friendship and that is what they don’t want…
'It hurts Them' when u give them none… LOL

It hurts when when over the years you realize how to deal with it and then people call you insensitive. IGNORE

It hurts even more… when second day in a Row…I should have been writing my essays, and am writing this crap.. cos it still hurts and now makes me laugh!!!

Tuesday, December 9, 2008


I have spent the day today.. Making graphics.. Essentially putting a lot of colours on papers which then will show on clothes… Ironically..… today at this unearthly hour.. I feel like being exhausted out of colour!!!

Its like there is colour around me… but the colours of my soul are all drained out!!!…

It still hurts!!



Am writing like this after a long time…..
Cos after days.. months… much more than a year now.. something deep inside is hurting!!!
It is that pain back again….
I can’t let that get off me…
Why is it that the people who matter to you are the ones who can hurt you the most and even more when you know what they are saying is totally true!!
Truth hurts …reality bites..

It hurts when u like someone for years and are not even able to let him know…
It hurts when as soon as he gets to know, you get to know he is with someone else,
It hurts when you have been with someone for years and it ends over an email….
It hurts when after deciding for the first time this is love you realize that he is not there any more.
It hurts when even after so much time you spent together it does not work…
It hurts when you see someone else in the same frame u were in earlier.
It hurts when few days ago the distance did not matter and now that is the whole problem.
It hurts when people can fake feelings.. why wasn’t I made like that…
It hurts when you expect too much, get nothing in return…
It hurts when you mistake a friendship for much more, but at the end of the day it is what it is.
It hurts when you expect a friendship and that is what they don’t want…
It hurts when when over the years you realize how to deal with it and then people call you insensitive.
It hurts even more when I should be writing my essays, and am writing this crap.. cos it still hurts!!!

Wednesday, November 12, 2008


....Blush.... by shradha

... am having fun!!!

Lace all Red!! by shradha
.... i like this one!!!
See more on Polyvore


.... orkut... yahoo games... facebook... move over.. Polyvore here i come!! LOL

Monday, November 10, 2008

Find me on Polyvore
........ between all the silly stuff i anyways keep doing!!!

Tuesday, November 4, 2008


"She waits for him to say 'I Love You' but he tells no more lies"
"She waits for him to say 'I Love You' but he tells no more lies"

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

OUCH!!!


Have you ever had a plastic bag pulled over your head???.....do you know what it feels like?....you are suffocated and grasping for air!!!
…..
i have recently... and it’s sick, nauseating and ugly!!

Saturday, October 11, 2008

Sweet Dreams are made of these!!!







... one of the places i want to visit.. topping the charts is ....Santorini in Greece!!
.... then venice... and St tropez....Spain.....Scotland ..Italy

Monday, September 22, 2008

PINK!!!



............ i guess i just love PINK!!!!.....

Thursday, August 21, 2008

Have u felt like laughing loud.....!!!



Have you ever felt….. that when your mom makes Non veg at home, that all the other food Dal, allo etc.. Anything else… ( this typically happens in Kashmiri families) becomes a side artist in the performance and the focus is only on the main hero the muthz.. the rogan josh, the kaliya and so on and so forth.

Have you ever felt…… that more than a solution for population, having less poverty, and giving free education….Indians need free deodorants? This feeling reaction is triggered in the following conditions…
** filled up Mumbai trains where every time the wind blows you can smell a mish mash of gajra, dried fish, vapa pao masala and fresh Bo.
** a taxi where then the passengers have to stare outside the windows.... like pet dogs, who have just been let our for the first time in months and getting their share of fresh air after ages… saving their noses from the scum of the Indian BO.

Have you ever felt…… really irritated when u have dipped your biscuit in hot tea and only half of it comes out and the rest gets left at bottom of the cup- all gooey!!
There are some important factors governing this reaction
1. The temperature of the tea.
2. The time for which the biscuit is dipped in the tea
3. The amount of the biscuit dipped in the tea should not be more than 50% ever.
4. Reacting fast after dipping the biscuit and then putting it in your mouth.

Monday, August 18, 2008

Maine Pichhale Saat Dino Mein, Ye Sab Hai Khoya

Meri Laundry Ka Ek Bill, Ik Aadhi Padhi Novel
Ek Ladki Ka Phone Number, Mere Kaam Ka Ek Paper
Mere Taash Se Heart Ka King, Mera Ik Chaandi Ka Ring
Pichhale Saat Dinon Mein Maine Khoya
Kabhi Khud Pe Hansa Main, Aur Kabhi Khud Pe Roya

Present Mili Ek Ghadi, Pyaari Thi Mujhe Badi
Meri Jeb Ka Ek Packet, Meri Denim Ki Jacket
Do One Day Match Ke Passes, Mere Naye Naye Sunglasses
Pichhale Saat Dinon Mein Maine Khoya
Kabhi Khud Pe Hansa Main, Aur Kabhi Khud Pe Roya

Kaise Bhulu Saatva Jo Din Aaya
Kisi Ne Tumse Ik Party Mein Milvaaya
Kaisa Pal Tha, Jis Pal Maine Tumko Pehali Baar Dekha Tha
Hum Jo Mile Pehli Baar, Maine Jaana Kya Hai Pyar
Maine Hosh Bhi Khoya, Dil Bhi Khoya
Kabhi Khud Pe Hansa Main, Aur Kabhi Khud Pe Roya

Maine Pichhale Saat Dino Mein, Ye Sab Hai Khoya


...... lyrics from a song from the new Farhan Akhtar movie. Like the lyrics.

maine kya kya khoya...
ek Angie Somers ki Cd, ek dost ki beedi
(sorry cigarette but that did not rhyme)
cupboard ki chabee, aur ek voucher abhee abhee
(LOL.... am pathetic at rhyming)
aur tin din mein aapna dimag.

anyway nice song.
It’s weird …some times.. we give so much of importance..... to things that don’t even count in our lives.

...That time when....

Just thinking of some really beautiful moments two people share.. when in love…or may be not....


… the time when the channel lifts (like the ones in Mumbai every where) close and slowly the lift starts to move.. you know that the person,…. you love is going away…… and slowly as each channel is closed… then the button is pressed and then the lift starts to move.. you know … with each of these actions…. the person is moving further away from you.

…...The time when the whole day you live for that one call in the night… u look forward to that half n hour every night.

.. there are these times when one of u is just starring blankly into the other one’s eye’s… you are lost in your love…..and then suddenly she wakes you up from your daze and says ..What???

… the time when at 12 in the night you are standing at the airport, to pick up this person you love… u guys haven’t met in months … u can see him through the glass, but u can’t go inside .. you can’t shout to him because he won’t be able to hear you… he is getting his luggage .. you know that he will be out in the ten minutes… but these ten minutes seem like ten years.

… the time when you try to hold your tears inside yourself… U heart is crying but u don’t want to let her know…

… the time when you really get to know, that this is love….when things become so clear in front of you… when u know he is the one… when u know u can’t live without him… when u know that you will give anything to be with him…. But its too late!!

.. the time when even the though, u haven’t seen her in the room or the building or the mall… know can feel her presence… you know she is somewhere.. you just know it… because you can feel her around you.

.. the time when the two of you are sitting by the sea front…. legs hanging in the air… feeling the breeze around you... the silent dark night....its so beautiful…in a way, you can’t explain…you don’t want that moment to end.

… the time when…. You can hear it in his voice.. What he feels… he doesn’t need to tell you,….. You just know it….the same way..he feels your presence without even seeing you physically.

…..the times when words fail you…. This happens like all the time!! :)

Friday, August 1, 2008

Laws of Attraction


Have you ever really wanted something, but you instead always think of the opposite that you cannot get it, and its not possible.
What if you can attract what you want to yourself? May be that is what I was looking for.. a way.. a path ..a direction and that is what I guess attracted me to this book called The Secret.

“The secret is the answer to all that has been all this is. and all that will be”. - Ralph Waldo Emerson 1803-1882

It says you can have, do or be anything. We can have whatever it is that we choose no matter how big it is. That thoughts become things.
It talks of the laws of attraction- Things can be attracted to you to the virtue of the image you hold of it….to think of yourself as a magnet.

The Secret talks about The Creative Process of Three Steps

Step1 ASK –
Know what you want and ask the universe for it.
This is where you need to get clear on what it is you want to create and visualize what you want as being as 'real' as possible.

Step2 BELIEVE/ ANSWER-
Feel and behave as if the object of your desire is on its way.
Focus your thoughts and your language on what it is you want to attract. You want to feel the feeling of really 'knowing' that what you desire is on its way to you, even if you have to trick yourself into believing it – do it.

Step3 RECEIVE-
Be open to receiving it.
Pay attention to your intuitive messages, synchronicities, signs from the Universe to help you along the way as assurance you are on the 'right' path. As you align yourself with the Universe and open yourself up to receiving, the very thing you are wanting to manifest will show up.

Do you believe in the Laws of Attraction?

Thursday, July 31, 2008

But is that what it is, or is that what I am telling myself!!


There is no way that you will ever know that…
There is no way that i will ever feel…
Cos since the time you have left I have been left numb…
There is a pain deep beneath my skin..
I know this is no betrayal, cos there was no trust no faith…
But some times we let our minds wander…
And our hearts beat a little faster..
And then we are left with nothing but pain…
Don’t know why it hurts so much ..
Cos I know it shouldn’t cos I know it doesn’t matter..
But is that what it is, or is that what I am telling myself!!!!!!!!!

Tuesday, July 29, 2008

I'll Be There For You

I guess this time you're really leaving
I heard your suitcase say goodbye
And as my broken heart lies bleeding
You say true love it's suicide

You say you're cried a thousand rivers
And now you're swimming for the shore
You left me drowning in my tears
And you won't save me anymore

Now I'm praying to God you'll give me one more chance, girl

I'll be there for you
These five words I swear to you
When you breathe I want to be the air for you
I'll be there for you
I'd live and I'd die for you
Steal the sun from the sky for you
Words can't say what a love can do
I'll be there for you

I know you know we've had some good times
Now they have their own hiding place
I can promise you tomorrow
But I can't buy back yesterday

And Baby you know my hands are dirty
But I wanted to be your valentine
I'll be the water when you get thirsty, baby
When you get drunk, I'll be the wine

I'll be there for you
These five words I swear to you
When you breathe I want to be the air for you
I'll be there for you
I'd live and I'd die for you
Steal the sun from the sky for you
Words can't say what a love can do
I'll be there for you

[Solo]

And I wasn't there when you were happy
I wasn't there when you were down
I didn't mean to miss your birthday, baby
I wish I'd seen you blow those candles out

I'll be there for you
These five words I swear to you
When you breathe I want to be the air for you
I'll be there for you
I'd live and I'd die for you
Steal the sun from the sky for you
Words can't say what a love can do
I'll be there for you

-----Bon Jovi Lyrics


... its an amazing song.... with the lyrics.. that are so.. bang on!!

You are the one...........


You are the one in the dreams
You are the one in the soul
You are in the days and in the nights
You are in the thoughts and in the mind

I swear you are the one… every where you are the one…
Yes wherever I see..wherever I look you are right there…
You are this world.. you are that world… you are my world…
From the edge of this earth till the end of the sky..
And every things in between… you are the one..
You are the one everywhere.. you are the one in me…

How should I tell and how will I tell you…
That how much I love you…
Even if I see you shadow…. I go closer and want to just stay there..

You are the one the feelings…
You are the one in the emotions..
You are the way…. You are the guide…
You’re the salvation that I wish for…

How should I tell and how will I tell you…
That when I dream of you in the night…
How should I tell and how will I tell you…
All those words which make me feel that you are around me,,

You are the beginning…
You are the trial..
You are the intent of my life
And the reason for my living.