I really can't do this anymore!!

Seriously i don't think i can do this anymore... i have had enough!!

I love how he makes me feel, like anything's possible, or like life is worth it!!

....that coffee is still pending....

You haven’t come... you haven’t called.. nor are you gonna call me..and now i can’t call you either... that coffee is still pending.. that dinner you still need to buy me... that conversation has still not ended!

You have gone.. and a lot feels incomplete.. my eyes are still looking for you... that drive we still need to take... that bridge we still need to cross.. there is so much to say... that conversation has still not ended!

Why have you gone.. why right nw... the night is still young.. the night is not over yet.. i am missing the company.....that wine glass is waiting..... still need someone to hear me out... that conversation has still not ended!

... i think am back... its the same person but something has changed...

This is what am doing this weekend

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Shelly gets romantic in the rains!!

Shelly thinks "The Proposal" is a nice movie... after a long time she liked a movie.. did not want it to end....she wanted to be a part of it...something somewhere touched ..don't know why... Shelly took an auto back home after the movie... n it was raining... Shelly likes the rains.. Shelly likes keep the windows in her room, wide open ..n just watch the rain...

Mushy movie+ Rains= Shelly gets romantic
Not good baby!!

Winters in Delhi...
Summers in Gulmarg...
Spring in Shimla..
....rains in Mumbai...when ur indoors.. Lol

R.I.P

You know a few days ago I wrote….” We are a cynical generation!!! Somehow in today’s world… on reel life and real life… nothing ever lasts!!!”

Today my own words came true.

I have this feeling…. This is it. It’s not going to last.. I always wished at least it would be worth the effort.


R.I.P….. There goes another one.

What Men Want

There is someone who once said that women think about her weight/body every 12 mins.. What do guys think about every 8 mins…. ?????LOL
What do guys think?? What do guys want?? What do guys want… I once asked a guy “When would you really want to get married” answer- “I guess am ready now …but you know a guy never really wants to. He is never ready” I guess I agree with him… he isn’t ready yet.. and might never be…LOL…the usual guy thing.
But anyway… As far as the rest of this force is concerned.. I guess it is true that men never really want to get committed. Biologically men are built to be polygamous. It just happens that one day they realize they don’t want to share!! And in turn they have to give up their freedom. Isn’t it like that. Or do men actually feel like committing to a woman all their life. Men might fall in love .. but they never really fall in a commitment.

The deepest shade of Love!!

“Ek bar humne sooncha tha kee phir pyaar naheen kareinge…
Ek bar humne thana tha kee ikrar to kabee naheen kareinge…
……. Par dil yeh kambakhat…..sala”

Every time…I decide I will follow my heart… my mind takes over…
And every time my mind decides something…. My heart sidelines it totally…
Yeh humaree hee kistam hai kee…jahan bhee, jis tarah bhee,… har jagah… haar to hamaree hee hotee hai…lol…

I always identified with love as shown in movies…a lot of times… would see myself in those characters…
Love to me…for the longest time was…. Aamir Khan singing pehla nasha…
Love was… Gazab ka hai din dekho zara… ‘QSQT’
Love was …when Drew Barry gets kissed in… ‘Never been kissed’.
Love was.. Bahoon ke darmiyaan .. ‘Kamoshi’
Love was… when Julia Roberts asks out Hugh Grant in ‘Notting Hill’
Love was… Jane kya Jane Man Bawara… ‘Pyar ke side effects’
Love was… and will be love at first sight …in ‘The Notebook.’
Love was…each tear from Jonny Depp’s eyes in ‘Edward Sissorhands’
Love was… when Raj gets Simran… ‘DDLJ’
Love was…. realizing before it’s too late…’A lot like love’
Love was… the climax in ‘Love Actually’
Love will always be…. Ross and Rachel…’Friends’
…. But today Love became… Dillep Singh… in Gulal… it was a different colour of love… not pale.. not pink…. It was a DEEP DEEP shade of Red…his love… his angst.. which literally seeps through the frame!!! Yes that’s the love I believe in today.

This movie was just too amazing.. also the fact that I can some how identify so well with these movies today… Gulal….. Luck by chance… but they some how compel me to think…if we are a cynical generation!!! Somehow in today’s world… on reel life and real life… nothing ever lasts!!!

FWD on QUARTER Life crisis

Hav u felt like this? I bet u have!!!
- am gonna write my views on this soon.. ive got loads to say.. for now.. read this...............


Being a twenty-something

It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are many things about yourself that you didn't know and may not like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.

You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met, and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones. What you don't recognize is that they are realizing that too, and aren't really cold, catty, mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you.

You look at wat urstudyin or urjob... and it is not even close to what you thought you would be doing, or maybe you are looking for a job and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and that scares you.

Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and are constantly adding things to your list of what is acceptable and what isn't. One minute, you are insecure and then the next, secure.

You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly, change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life , but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away, and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.

You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you. Or you lie in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough that you want to get to know better. Or maybe you love someone! but love someone else too and cannot figure out why you're doing this because you know that you aren't a bad person. Getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic. You go through the same emotions and questions over and over, and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision. You worry about loans, money, the future and making a life for yourself... and while winning the race would be great, right now youare scared just to be a contender!

What you may not realize is that every one reading this relates to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out. Send this to your twenty-something friends... maybe it will help someone feel like they aren't alone in their state of confusion...



Its called "Quarter-life Crisis." nothing is constant......except change.
wats life without a few risks? keep playing the game!